And the Thunder Rolls On

I think I'm starting to understand the human mind more and more. I replay things in my head far too often for my comfort. I overextend myself in ways I did not imagine I could. The way you play mind games with someone for an extended period of time, eventually that person loses himself/herself in the toxic cycle that the mind has perceived to be real. Once you step out of the situation, it's amazing how you're able to think logically and clearly about the method to your madness.

My mind is a castle with walls so high no one will ever be able to jump them the way you did.

King without a Crown

Rain falling against the window, as I sit there wondering if you will look this way.

I never realized in this single moment in time that you meant so much to me.

So much attention, approval, so much love, and so much of every inch of me.

I was at the feet of a King that held my power...

And then,

he lost it.

Lyrics to relate to Lecrea -Cry for you

"Cry For You"

(feat. Taylor Hill)

[Taylor Hill:] This thorn in my flesh Is the only thing I got left

And it's so hard to confess When everybody thinks you're perfect But I cry for you

If you feel it too And I'll cry for you If you show how to lose The elephants in the room

[Lecrae:] Take it away, I beg you, take it all away The pain it causes, it makes me wish I could fade away If they knew what you knew, they'd probably shun me I'm surprised you know it all and you love me I know I break your heart

Body of death, give me rest if my heart stops Then it don't hurt no more, can't get worse no more Can't pursue all these desires, it ain't cursed no more No more lies about my worth no more I understand the thoughts of suicide that do reside But when I stop and think about my family, I feel new inside I promised I would die a thousand deaths 'fore I cause them any pain But somehow I end up killing everything

I cry for you If you feel a dark, twisted, heart-wrenching, hate-to-see-your-own-reflection Praying for an intervention, feeling guilt and feeling shame I just call on Jesus name Praying daily, can you take away this pain? Take the thorn away

Still, it remains, I Feel the same, I Know that I'm here, but Still feel insane Satan would love to see my give up and throw up my hands He say I'm guilty but You say I'm clean [Taylor Hill:] This thorn in my flesh Is the only thing I got left

And it's so hard to confess When everybody thinks you're perfect But I cry for you If you feel it too

And I'll cry for you If you show how to lose The elephants in the room [Lecrae:] Yeah, Sunday morning, or Sunday mourning I woke up dead inside from all the hurt I saw before me Evil tryna take away my testimony

Starin' at my phone, feelin' like a phony Oh, I cry for you, I would die for you To escape the pain I feel from all that I've been through I feel it in my soul and in my chest Take away this ugly thorn inside my flesh Give me death But grace is sufficient to start my mission I'm so far from perfect, can't believe they listen But hear a broken man 'til your healin' happens And hear a liar tell you truth to bring you gladness I could never boast in my accomplishments

I can only hope in God with confidence Opposite of optimist, U and I are consonants Broken all the vowels, deservin' of every consequence Will you cry for me, or will you judge me? Will you throw stones at my head, or will you love me? I could never be everything that you wanna see But crooked sticks draw straight lines, just look at me (But crooked sticks draw straight lines, just look at me) [Taylor Hill:] This thorn in my flesh Is the only thing I got left And it's so hard to confess When everybody thinks you're perfect But I cry for you If you feel it too And I'll cry for you If you show how to lose The elephants in the room